My first reason is I think people SUCK in general ..greedy fkn douches ..yup I can say it and be true .take my own wife I actually have to borrow money from her ..I am struggling like fuck and what she can GIVE her money out to others that are in need yet me being fucking desperate has to pay her back in a timely fashion ..I am disabled and lost 120 a month due to this fucked up system I am unfortunate to have had ..I paid everything for fucking YEARS to help her selfish fucking greedy bitch ass out ..and as pay back ..she wants her lousy 50 dollar payment!!!! omg I promise I will end my life soon just have too many things to wrie about hwo things work I really know I get how it works God life YES it truly can be understood really ..but its so much shit to write down ..in the end I am the most miserable fuck you will ever meet except to talk to me you would think I am happy as hell because I do not want to effect others ..